Longing

From 2012.
It took me 10 years, the love of my life and a chronic autoimmune disease to figure out that longing to not exist at all since age 12 is not normal at all.
Looking at most of my photographs in retrospective everything basically screams depression.
I'm still depressed as hell and this might never change because of the disease but that's okay. It's just a part of me that I learned to accept. And no matter how depressed I am, since I've met this wonderful person I've never once in my life felt as lost like in the 7 years before I met him.